This world...

I often have a feeling that once when you step in a new society, you'll always be connected with those people, that information, and those events. What I mean by "society" is any form of groups of people. Say, a student activity in college, flatmates you used to live with, participants from the same program, etc. 


I didn't know how huge was this power of connection until about two years ago. 
For me, it was the first time to feel the intense and subtle interactions between each individual. How far these interactions will bring us to, we won't know. 


So people around me, in a way, are all connected with their own societies; and each society intertwines with one another. Then there's the web of human connections.


Once when you realize how immense this web can be, you'll be sorry for those who left behind or ignorant of all these. They'll be disconnected for sure from all sorts of information we share within this particular society. And they can't understand what this society is about, and they can't understand what these people are up to. 


So misunderstandings bubble up like fists of furry.
Distance emerges from the tranquil sea. 
Gaps, gaps, and gaps block these two totally different societies from mutual communication and understanding.


Isn't it just all about that? 
The furry from all walks of people in this big world? 


It's like... it's like it's either be left behind or left disconnected. 


So that makes information important. 
So that makes communication important. 
So that makes understanding important. 


But what if people are still not willing to talk? What if they have no enough certitude to decide? What if they have no enough confidence to believe in themselves that they can cross the gap?


What if it's all about something very subtle yet essential inside? The inner? The most intriguing and absurd human mind? The status of mind? The psychological trick and barriers?


And yet above all these, what if it's really about uncertainty?


"Uncertainty only creates uncontrollable panic without any form of resolution."


What if it's the uncertainty that exists with human mind? Since human beings are always capricious. No one will last like a diamond. So people buy diamonds for the illusion of possessing its ever-lasting.


What if our believes are sometimes fluid? Just like our capricious mind and state?


Will this alter the world that rounds us? Will this flip over our own judgement and perspectives? 


Will...will anyone in this world know what we are really thinking and believing? 


This will never ever be solved. And that causes the puzzles of my mind, threatening my own world of existing.