65DaysOfStatic - Aren't We All Running

如果說好聽的音樂是要像說故事般，有個起承轉合，那這首歌無疑是一段好聽的故事。

就跟 Death Cab for Cuties 的「I Will Possess Your Heart」一樣。

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Interactive Transcript

Blue Foundation - End Of The Day (Silence)

Unafraid - Jan Johnston

格子 The World of Squares

X Amount of Words

孩子們的笑容

所有照片來自 Mikey Pan

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不曉得是在哪裡看到一句話（還是某位有名人物的感想？），說著：

「孩子的笑容是未來的希望。看到孩子們哭泣、悲苦的臉龐，是世間最痛苦的景象。」

應該是這麼寫著吧，我不太記得了，但是它給我的映像卻烙在腦中。

這些照片是去年學打鼓時透過 Joy 認識的姊姊 Mikey 在印度照得。放在 FB 的整本相冊充滿孩童歡笑的容顏；當然，也透過鏡頭帶出發展中國家的另一面。古文明與現代化、富裕與貧困。

所以當我看到面對鏡頭卻沒有笑容的孩子時，我會有些難過。

可能也是自己想太多吧！但是去年夏天在迦納看到的孩子讓我想很多；很難忘。

貧窮國家的孩子因為飢餓沒有笑容；台灣的孩子因為升學沒有笑容。

孩童是一國未來的資產，那請來看看我國的孩子如何成長？



每次像這樣和媽媽分享我的心得，她就會用相當貼近我（們）日常生活的例子說：

「唉唷，妳看那誰誰誰 / 哪哪哪還不是一樣！」

媽媽總是一棒打醒夢中人。相對沉默的爸爸有時會站在我這邊。


我們身邊隨時隨地都有故事，只是看願不願意聆聽，有沒有心發現罷了。自己親戚們的故事都可集結成冊（還要分上、中、下冊）反映這社會的興衰盛亡，何必遠求於人？


是吧，我想太多了。一向如此。

想多了就會變成發明家吧！= )

（最好是）

好想唱這首喔～

來個 acoustic 也不錯捏～ 我也有鼓可以配！

來自 Sakorzy 的美麗老婆的歌「L'amour」
當初是在看德國劇導 Ostermeier 的 Hamlet 聽到的～～
每次聽心情都很放鬆！非常適合配杯酒的假日晚上！！



L'amour, hum hum, pas pour moi,
Tous ces "toujours",
C'est pas net, ça joue des tours,
Ca s'approche sans se montrer,
Comme un traître de velours,
Ca me blesse ou me lasse selon les jours

L'amour, hum hum, ça ne vaut rien,
Ça m'inquiète de tout,
Et ça se déguise en doux,
Quand ça gronde, quand ça me mord,
Alors oui, c'est pire que tout,
Car j'en veux, hum hum, plus encore,

Pourquoi faire ce tas de plaisirs, de frissons, de caresses, de pauvres promesses
A quoi bon se laisser reprendre
Le cour en chamade,
Ne rien y comprendre,
C'est une embuscade,

L'amour ça ne va pas,
C'est pas du Saint Laurent,
Ca ne tombe pas parfaitement,
Si je ne trouve pas mon style ce n'est pas faute d'essayer,
Et l'amour j'laisse tomber !

A quoi bon ce tas de plaisirs, de frissons, de caresses, de pauvres promesses ?
Pourquoi faire se laisser reprendre,
Le cour en chamade,
Ne rien y comprendre,
C'est une embuscade,

L'amour, hum hum, j'en veux pas
J'préfère de temps de temps
Je préfère le goût du vent
Le goût étrange et doux de la peau de mes amants,
Mais l'amour, hum hum, pas vraiment!

Blue October - Into The Ocean

Blue October - Kangaroo Cry

By Blue October

Losing my control
Here it is the day I have to go
Just sit beside me
I can’t let this show
How sick I feel to leave you so alone
God I’m terrified

We’ve lost respect for decency
When one can turn our world into an ant pile
We run circles, no direction do I see
The dust has blinded you, the dust has blinded me

I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live


And you choose to break our families
Tell me you’ve used all precautions known
And I’ll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
We’ll let the prayers start healing, what time’s been stealing

We only want to feel as close as we can be
Use hands for holding on to your precious family
Just believe in all who shine
The light to help you see
Cause if I believe in you, will you believe in me?

I kissed her on the cheek
And then I waved goodbye
She had the saddest look I’ve seen in years
A kangaroo cry
A warm pathetic ocean flow we have to live by
We have to live by
Because we have to live


You choose to break our families
Tell me you’ve used all precautions known
And I’ll stand beside the ones who stood alone
How long will we have to sing until you finally bring our sons, our daughters home?
We’ll let the prayers start healing, what time’s been stealing

Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on
Keep hanging on

We’ll let the prayers start healing, when time’s been stealing
Start healing
Start healing

Blue October - Hate Me

(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

(Chorus 1)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finaly see what's good for you.


(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.

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.....死沒品

昨天早上上課，坐我對面的兩位同學都感冒，一直咳、一直咳、一直咳、一直咳

她媽的一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳一直咳就對啦

我不是歧視感冒人

我是歧視她媽的感冒咳嗽不摀嘴的！

幹，還坐我對面啦！

每一咳，我就可以感受到

週遭方圓十里的氣流有變化，一陣穢氣朝我迎面襲來......

幹，教室就長這樣，位置就長這樣，我她媽的躲都不能躲，幹！！！

就這樣咳咳咳咳咳咳咳咳她老媽得咳了兩節課，幹！



還跟我借東西去看，然後邊看邊咳在上面，幹你媽啦！！！！！！！！！！！

幹你媽幹你媽幹你媽，你咳三小？？！

妳咳了是不會摀嘴嗎？幹！你爸媽怎麼教得？！！！幹幹幹幹幹幹！

你還他媽得咳在上面，幹你媽！！

妳難道無法察覺有兩道厲光射向你嗎？幹你媽，你咳在上面是咳三小？？

還不止咳一次，是一直咳一直咳一直咳在上面的那種！！！！！

幹！！！！


是說，有的人咳咳咳，很小聲得咳、無傷大雅得咳，我可以接受，可能是呼吸道過敏這樣

但是，她媽的這兩人明明就是感冒，咳一咳還有痰聲的那種，幹！

那你不戴口罩是衝三小？你不摀嘴是衝三小？

大家吸你的廢氣、吃你的口水是不是？！！！


幹你媽！要躲沒得躲！！！幹你媽，幹！！！

害我現在要感冒了，幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹！

喉嚨怪怪的、頭暈暈的......................幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹

幹你們兩個，幹！！

去死吧，幹！！！！

她媽的老娘這一學年每次感冒都是被她媽的別人傳染，幹！！！！！

幹你們兩個，幹！！！！！！

幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹！
千金之體，可是容你們這些賤人糟蹋的？！

不要讓我在路上遇到你們

她媽的雞巴人

被我遇到的話









我只會當作沒看到！！.......






幹，又不能上去毆你們，幹！因為認識齁！！！



幹幹幹幹！


最幹的是你不能跟他們講也躲不掉，因為是認識的！！！！

幹幹幹幹幹幹幹幹按幹幹！！！！！！！！

Muse - New Born [Live From Wembley Stadium]

Link it to the world
Link it to yourself
Stretch it like a birth squeeze
The love for what you hide
For bitterness inside
Is growing like the new born
When you've seen, seen too much
Too young, young
Soulless is everywhere

Hopeless time to roam
The distance to your home
Fades away to nowhere
How much are you worth?
You can't come down to earth
You're swelling up
You're unstoppable
Cos you've seen
Seen too much
And too young
Young
Soulless is everywhere
Destroy the spineless
Show me it's real
Wasting our last chance
To come away
Just break a silence
Cause i'm drifting away
Away from you

Yeah link it to the world
Link it to yourself
Stretch it like it's a birth squeeze
And the love for what you hide
And the bitterness inside
Is growing like the new born
When you've seen, seen too much
Too young, young
Soulless is everywhere
Destroy the spineless
Show me it's real
Wasting our last chance
To come away
Just break a silence
Cause i'm drifting away
Away from you
Oooohhhhaaaaaahhhhh

我的心住了一隻怪獸

看到一個人。

還滿喜歡的。

可是........唉

算了吧。

muse- new born

有出現在電影「劍魚」裡的原聲帶～～ 還不錯！

錢到用時方恨少

盼啊、盼啊，禮拜三時接到一通來自台北的室話，終於等到僑委會通知我進行下一個步驟了！

如願地被分發到舊金山，我開始幻想著 Stanford 裡美好的一切......

當我在他們的校園首頁看到這照片時，我都傻眼了

美麗的校園建築彷如在地中海渡假、超大的校園裡有標準馬術練習場（竟然還有學生馬球俱樂部和馬術隊）、超高級馬廄、高爾夫球場（不是高爾夫球練習場喔），還有可供飛機起降的醫院.......

Stanford Red Barn

The Stanford Equestrian Team

於是乎，禮拜四期中告一個段落後，我在昏睡了一整個下午，禮拜五晚上開始著手申請學校的後續事宜：趕緊繼續完成我的線上申請手續，然後調查一下 Stanford 的校園設備、學生活動等等......

看了上述那些圖片和敘述後，

心馳神往啊！！！！！

接著，我用老媽的信用卡付了USD$75的線上申請費（non-refundable）之後，Stanford校務組相當有效率地寄了一封信到我的信箱。我點開來看，不外乎是些相當重要的消息。

上面還有一個連結連到一本相當重要的「Handbook」，我就點進去，下載來仔細參詳......

我就順著PDF一路往下拉、往下看，然後因為長期睡眠不足又加上一個下午睡太多，我頭暈地無法有效率地閱讀完都是密密麻麻英文的落落長資訊.........

光研究這本 Handbook 就折騰我好久，因為頭實在是太暈了（那種暈眩的感覺很像是有兩道深遂的洞穴從眉頭下方靠近眼窩處向前蔓延；偏偏神志還滿清醒，完全沒有睡意，但是那個暈又讓你無法有效率地做正事.....）

我就一路頭暈，一路地往下閱讀，尋找相當重要的辦簽證事宜，接著就看到這個畫面：

我那昏眩的腦袋瞬間「鏘」了一下！

我顫抖地用食指點著滑鼠，小心翼翼地用小算盤算著「11552乘以33等於......」

我在往上看，上面是寫著「8 units」.......

「啊幹！！！！為什麼是 8 units？？？當初我明明想選得課就只有 3 units 而已呀！！」

所以我繞回去參詳了許久，發現因為國際學生要申請「I-20」，勢必得成為「full-time students」 ，也就是必須修滿八個單位（類似學分可是是用在 quarter 制）之暑期課程........

就有點像是我們一學期低修不能超過幾幾幾學分的意思！

因為要去暑假兩個月，等於是他們兩個月的課程，也就等於是一整個 quarter，所以一定要修滿 8 個學分！！！

不然美國移民局不准入境、AIT不會發簽證！！！！

所以光學費就是靠盃地令人尿褲子..........................

於是乎，我再甸了甸了自己的斤兩，發現我目前沒本錢過這種兩個月的課程就要價三十八萬台幣的昂貴生活..........................................................

打電話跟老爸和老媽稟報來龍去脈後，我心中含淚、不捨地做出決定........... OQ

喔，不，我的史丹佛～～～～～～～～～

我夢想去買的 Stanford hoodie...

我夢想去買的 Stanford mug.........

還有 Stanford postcard...

還有在 Stanford 校園裡慢跑、去馬廄看看馬、去足球場看和參加 Women's Soccer 踢球、練習的夢想，通通都沒啦！！！！！！！！

所以現在我又重新開始研究 UCB 的課程.............. 因為被分發到 SF，只能選就近的學校......

不然 Columbia、Princeton、UMichigan 也是在國際關係研究方面很不錯的..........

雖然說 UCB 也是很好，但是跟我心目中的 Stanford 就是........... 不一樣！

光這方面的排名就差滿多名次的 哭哭哭哭哭

果然名校真的是好貴好貴好貴好貴！！！！

一個 quarter 就要 38萬台幣，那一年不就是要超過150萬台幣嗎？跟 LSE 一樣地貴！

名校真的是好貴好貴好貴！！

UCB 雖然也不便宜，但依我昨天這樣粗略估計，光學費就差了好幾千美金...... 整個可以省掉十萬塊台幣吧..................
 政府雖然有補助我13萬台幣，但是如果要去 Stanford，這個錢只能補三分之一還不到，塞塞牙縫而已....................................＝ ＝

如果選 UCB，還要自付個學費加生活費十萬塊左右..................... 唉唉



回到一個最基本的現實面.........................


有錢就好了！


有錢了我還在這邊擔心去 Stanford 去不成嗎？！！


然後很令我擔心的是，因為我並非英語為母語、也非本科系學生，很怕去美國上這種課程會很慘.....................................................

又加上花了父母這麼多錢，不好好認真學習會對不起自己的良心和父母寬厚溫暖無私無盡的愛！！！！！！！！

我真的需要認真努力地學習，好好地接受這個巨大的挑戰，去體驗一個全新的美式大學生生活.............................................

還有簽證、住宿、繳學費等事情要去忙................

壓力來了！！！

害我這幾天都睡不太安穩....................... :S

唉唉唉唉唉唉




用一句話總結以上：






「乾你媽，老娘有錢就好了齁！！！！！」

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