那種答應人事情卻沒做的人。他媽的藉口一堆，當初就不要答應啊！想到昨天上課，陳玨老師提到華人最沒有西方人所謂的「commitment」（承諾）的概念。這是真的呀！大學活動參加到現在，倒是見了不少這種毫無承諾性的人。
(( 雖然說我有時候也會一時懶散，偷懶不想去參加當初說好的某約。))
但是最後我通常還是去了！更別說那些當初答應下來的很重要的事，例如：做影片或是海報之類的。
最討厭之一
別再推我了
拜託，不要把逼我上非主流的道路；我不想過地坎坷、曲折，又艱辛。我其實沒有那麼勇敢。
可是這環境無法讓我緊緊地把住方向盤、無法讓我心無旁鶩地駛在正規道路上。
為什麼祢要這樣對我？我有做錯什麼嗎？
我對這環境既失望又喜愛，好矛盾、好煩。
只好寄情於山水、放蕩於大自然間。至少在這宇宙之下，我仍感覺到我還在呼吸。
俯仰之間，我感受到我的渺小與微不足道；剎那間一刻成永恆，世俗不再重要。
若能化成一朵雲，漂浮在天上.....
身邊都是雲朵，你是你，我是我，我又是你，你又是我。我們大家都是一體，不分彼此、毫無牽掛...... 那有多好。
至少昨晚達成第一步。雖然猶豫了很久，但是還是........
唉，人生啊。
Ziggy Marley - Good old days
no one knows what the future holds for
everything has a season
its not a time for war its a time for peace
tomorrow knows tomorrow woes
Desert Places by Robert Frost
Snow falling and night falling fast, oh, fast
In a filed I looked into going past,
And the ground almost covered smooth in snow,
But a few weeds and stubble showing last.
The woods around it have it-- it is theirs.
All animals are smothered in their lairs.
I am too absent-spirited to count;
The loneliness includes me unawares.
And lonely as it is, that loneliness
Will be more lonely ere it will be less--
A blanker whiteness of benighted snow
With no expression, nothing to express.
They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars-- on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.
Sacrificed Dreams
Charlotte Perkins Gilman:
Women's economic dependency on men stunts not only the growth of women but that of the whole human species. Because of the dependency of women on men for food and shelter the sexual and maternal aspects of their personalities had been developed excessively and to the detriment of their other productive capacities.
Inspirations:
- All of human being's dreams are destroyed under our worldly pursuit of a so-called 'stable' social-economic status. We reckon it will bring us happiness.
- We surrender our dreams to the reality. We compromise our passion.
- Think about it: Since childhood, we have dreamed our future self - a painter, a PE teacher, a photographer, a professor, a pilot, a doctor. But in the end, have we become our dreams? The answer is no. We turn out to be someone else we never expected to be.
More inspirations:
- So why does this society suffocate our childhood dreams?
- Why can't Taiwan have Mark Zuckerberg, if we are so proud of our ICT industry and innovation / advancement?
- Our society has a strong moral judgement. This judgement is never spoken out; it's inside everyone's conscious. Whenever we see someone exceed our moral ruler, we will use peer pressure as a social power.
- We don't care individualism that much as Western society, particularly the North American. We care the individual as a projection of the WHOLE.
- For instances: What would it happen if Mark Zuckerberg was born and raised in Taiwan - No drop-out from Harvard, neither any drop-out from any college. 'You should get the fuck back into your studies and get your bachelor degree. Better, a master one, since every college graduates go to graduate school nowadays.' So Zuckerberg got his degrees, and went to an ordinary ICT company, working his liver, youth, and brain out for engineering. A tired, ordinary engineer. What Facebook? Stop day dreaming, dude.
Some yellings:
So why can't I do my college for six years? F off!
[PS]
Frederick Jackson Turner:
Individualism in America has allowed a laxity in regard to governmental affairs which has rendered possible the spoils system and all the manifest evils that follow from the lack of a highly developed civic spirit.
...and yet, in spite of environment, and in spite of custom, each frontier did indeed furnish a new filed of opportunity, a gate of escape from the bondage of the past; and freshness, and confidence, and scorn of older society, impatience of its restraints and its ideas, and indifference to its lessons, have accompanied the frontier.(from "The Significance of the Frontier in American History")
Gnarls Barkley - Crazy (Live Roskilde 2008)
I remember when, I remember
I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space
And when you're out there without care
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly
And I hope that you are
Having the time of your life
But think twice
That's my only advice
Come on now, who do you
Who do you, who do you, who do you think you are?
Ha ha ha, bless your soul
You really think you're in control?
Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me
My heroes had the heart
To lose their lives out on a limb
And all I remember
Is thinking, I want to be like them
Ever since I was little
Ever since I was little
It looked like fun
And it's no coincidence I've come
And I can die when I'm done
But maybe I'm crazy
Maybe you're crazy
Maybe we're crazy
Probably
Woodkid - Iron from WOODKID on Vimeo.
some solid truths
"Whosoever should be a man must be a non-conformist." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson.
I should reckon this as my latest motto. I should not force myself to cater everyone. Fuck off and don't heed.
"Truth does not exist objectively but is the product of the mind's interaction with reality."
Truth is relative. It's just a matter of opinion.
"If meaning is a human construction, than meaning lies in the process of generating meaning; if meaning lies obscured deep underneath the ruins of modern life, then it must be effortfully sought out."
The so-called spirit of Modernism.
Why can't I??
This is my college, why can't I do it for six years?
I wanna learn oil painting, microeconomics, macroeconomics, golf, soccer, and more things I'm really interested in!
Why can't I do it in the way I want?
Why does everyone heed so much?
What the heck is it with you to bother me about delayed graduation? Can't I take two majors and study for five years? Stop asking, just fucking stop it. Shut your mouth.
If I tell you I wanna study IR or photography in the future, I can imagine your face with despise and asking me the reason. And you'll talk like you're a pro and give me those fucking suggestions that I already know.
Why should everyone follow everyone's step? So what? So what that Taiwan has little future in IR? So what Art can't feed myself? So what photography journalist is the tough way?
So what?
If I do live a life I'm happy with, why should you bother?
If I do love the thing I'm learning, why should you ask?
Are these all your fucking business? Just bother yourself!
THIS IS MY LIFE.
This is my college life.
This is my future plan.
This is my decision.
THIS IS MY FUCKING LIFE, why can't you just leave me alone!
FUCK REALITY. FUCK THE WORLD.
Target Got!
Finished 6K non-stoply within 45 minutes!
The power should come from your waist and it'll make a lot easier!
So what the fuck does this mean that a social networking site can change human relations' interactions? Sometimes Internet gives people a sense of protection. An illusion that interactions online aren't real. NO. That is not true. It means so much more when people are really able to interact both online and offline.
Don't fucking add me if I don' t know you much, prick.
...Alright, I'm being to harsh here.
Placebo - Where is my Mind (HQ)
With your feet in the air , when your head on the ground
You try this trick and spin! Yeahh!
Your head will collapse , when there is nothing in it
and you ask yourself?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Way out, in the water see her swimming
I was swimmin´ in the caribean
Animals were hiding behind the rocks. Yeahh!
Except the little fish
but he told me east is west
they trying´ to crack
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Way out, in the water see her swimming´
With your feet in the air when your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin! Yeahh!
Your head will collapse when there is nothing in it
And you ask yourself
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Where is my mind?
Way out, in the water see her swimming
Rebirth from Scout Magazine on Vimeo.
小派對惹怨 民批飯店、墾管處放任
更新日期:
2011/04/05 04:11
沙灘變垃圾場 官方將罰飯店並檢討合約
〔自由時報記者蔡宗憲／恆春報導〕除了行之有年的春吶及春浪場次，過去經常衍生治安問題的電音派對，這兩年似乎又捲土重來，而且在財團「有意無意」的掩護下，對環境也產生極大衝擊，讓居民痛斥，「音樂季已經是混亂、髒亂跟淫亂的代名詞，墾管處只敢欺負老百姓，對財團大開方便之門，實在可惡。」
墾丁知名景點小灣沙灘經過數千人徹夜開趴，昨早猶如被海嘯襲擊過，到處散發噁心的酸臭味，滿地的碎玻璃、煙火屑及菸蒂，承租管理的凱撒飯店至昨天下午仍無法清理完畢。
來自台中市的沈先生說，過去小灣不曾這麼可怕，本來想帶孩子體驗沙灘，沒想到卻看到滿地破碎酒瓶、煙火枝條及菸蒂，他們不敢相信來到的是人為開發限制嚴格的國家公園沙灘；一旁經營水上活動的陳太太也很無奈，他們賴以為生的美麗沙灘變得好像垃圾場，很擔心遊客不敢前往戲水。
沙灘面積較大的南灣沙灘同樣令人搖頭，活動前負責管理的悠活渡假村一再強調派對業者將不會違規在沙灘上舉辦，沒想到活動開始後，舞台照樣架設，沙灘也以圍籬圍住；夏都沙灘酒店則以「只為房客舉辦」的派對，技巧性的圍住飯店旁的大灣沙灘，讓不少遊客及居民大罵，「一個飯店霸佔一個沙灘，完全無視國家公園法令，墾丁地區簡直淪為財團把持！」
居民王先生痛批，墾管處遇到財團就軟腳，只會強硬要求一般的生意人及百姓，照今年飯店各據沙灘的方式，未來恆春半島的船帆石、白砂、後灣沙灘，恐怕很快就會有「企業」認養，真正是「山也BOT、海也BOT」。
對此亂象，墾管處處長林青表示，今年兩個沙灘的情況讓人心痛，對於兩家五星級的飯店業者放任廠商進行諸多違規的活動及行為，墾管處除了先依國家公園法祭出罰單，近期內也將針對承租合約討論，不排除祭出終止合約的作法。
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聖地牙哥的拉荷亞（La Jolla）地區之沙灘也是加州聞名，但在當地政府的政策與法令規定下，所有沙灘一律禁止攜帶、飲用含酒精性飲料，更沒有聽說過在沙灘上舉辦規模上千人的音樂派對。當地民眾也自制，頂多只自備食物在沙灘上野餐，離去時也帶走所有垃圾，保持沙灘乾淨，讓此區成為大大小小朋友、家庭、外來觀光客的休閒聖地。
反觀墾丁國家公園，雖為台灣最知名之國家公園之一，更設有國家公園管理處，卻年年舉辦規模龐大的音樂派對。不是說舉辦派對不行，但舉辦過後的滿地垃圾整個沙灘都是，還說什麼保護珊瑚礁與生態？如果要墾管處仿效聖地牙哥政府，下令禁止攜帶含酒精性飲料進入沙灘，做得到嗎？有效嗎？
我看應該還是滿地垃圾，只是少了酒瓶，多了連鎖飲料店的塑膠杯吧。
________ = a scoop of honey vanilla ice cream with muesli
______ = ?
will that be you?
relationships. are they necessary?
truth, nature, and human relationships. which one?
i'm waiting for my scoops.
kiss my ass people
I'm brave but I'm also a chicken shit.
Ahh! Is this the way I want my life to be lead and lived?
Honesty, honesty, and honesty.
It does not exist in this world.
Rather than love, faith, money, and fairness, give me truth.
mint chocolate incident
a girl sat next to me passed me a piece of mint chocolate last week. it was from her classmate, the girl sat next to her. i was quite surprised though, since i barely knew them. i only talked to one of them at a chinese poetry class last semester. she was asking me about the textbook i was reading . i was reading for kim's poetry class, since i had to turn in my paper the next day.
and then, this semester, i took the same course with them, since it was all of our common compulsory. besides, i found out that we were also in one general education course.
so, after i received that piece of chocolate, i was surprised for a moment. but then i thanked her of course, with an exact amount of surprise. i ate it without hesitation.
so i was thinking, whether i should thank her again, and bring some in return this week? so i was quite sure that i should thank her again face-to-face this time, with more sincerity.
but!!!
that girl, she changed her style totally! i couldn't even recognize her!
i was actually walking behind her to the classroom, but i thought she was somebody else, and i was just wondering why did she take that seat. and i was just planning to tell her that all seats in the classroom were settled and couldn't be changed.
but then, there came another girl, her classmate, and they talked. and i knew it! because her voice / tone was quite 'special' and kind of pretentious.
so i was like 'wow'! why did she change her style so dramatically??? she was a really common girl with all these... pff... korean / japanese / taiwanese teen girl apparels. but now she had her hair cut and waxed. quite short in comparison with her previous style. leather jacket. jeans and canvas sneakers.
so my original intention was interrupted. this realization was totally not in my plan. then i was thinking whether i should thank her after the class. that would be more appropriate.
but as soon as the lecture was over, i was looking for the timing. and her friend was there, it was quite an interruption. i just didn't know why. i guess i preferred to thank her and talk more with her in private?? her dramatical change of style was so interesting. i was quite curious about that. yet her friend there was just a bloc of the way.
so i left the classroom without executing my plan.
now i'm thinking to bring a bar of chocolate next time, and share it with them, causing less embarrassment and intense.
i just don't wanna be an impolite fat-ass eater!
i don't give a fuck!
seeing how they're living just gives me agony. but i should wear a smiling mask and show them that i do live brilliantly too. more awesome than theirs.
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"Nature is but an image or imitation of wisdom, the last thing of the soul."
-- Plotinus
