年初:畢冊、青年大使
年初過一點:畢冊、青年大使
快年中:畢冊、青年大使、期末考
年中:青年大使
年中過一點:居阿姨、研究所
快年尾:居阿姨、研究所、米國
年尾:備審資料、期末考
每年年尾都會問自己「明年此時我會在哪做什麼?」
每次答案都不是肯定的,我想這就是人生。
做每件事都是依照自己的計畫大綱去走。做每件事都不是很肯定做了之後能幹麻,但也只能走一步算一步,走久了就覺得默默離不開它。
後來才慢慢理解原來自己的大綱一開始是以某種難以言喻的目標當作雛型。它好像就是夢想。
年尾
Saturday, December 31, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:52:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Reflection
GoPro HD: Dreams with Kelia Moniz - Roxy Wahine Classic 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:24:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Videos
有道理
五色令人目盲,五音令人耳聾,五味令人口爽,馳騁畋獵令人心發狂,難得之貨,令人行妨。是以聖人為腹,不為目,故去彼取此。
-- 老子
看來太多感官享受與刺激讓人們心神不寧。所以要回歸本心,只求最初的生理溫飽、滿足,而不求過多的享受。
Wednesday, December 28, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 2:32:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Literature
Afrojack ft. Eva Simons - Take Over Control (Official Radio Mix)
Tuesday, December 27, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 10:42:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Kleerup feat. Robyn "With Every HeartBeat"
posted by Karina Sun @ 9:29:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
絕望
今天去買搬了家的新加坡美食。本來想買海南雞,結果沒了,只好換蛋包飯。在那邊等好久,就很無聊,只好做起平常不會做的事:默默打量路人。
不打量還好,一打量好失望。
大概有五十個人,女性只有五個吧。扣掉媽媽,只剩兩個。好多桌都是男的,好可怕。一整個都是男人的地方,而且又醜又不會穿衣服,我整個很傷心。
看來老天是要把我逼向絕路了。哭哭。
然後回來的路上,對台灣的交通感到絕望。幹,每個人都不讓,敢死嗎?
你慢速不會靠右邊嗎?幹你媽。
引句郭老師名言:「台灣真是令人絕望的地方。」
posted by Karina Sun @ 9:26:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Hatred
presidential election 2012
I just bought High Speed Railway round tickets to my registered permanent address to vote for the presidential election on January 14, 2012. I didn't know that a 30% off would make tickets so much cheaper! Another love for Taiwan.
Sunday, December 25, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:55:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life
圖書館的眾白癡們
- 我不懂為什麼要在個人做的自習區說話?就算壓低聲音西西酥酥的也是他媽的很吵。
- 我不懂既然連馬桶都不會上,那為什麼不用尿布呢?
- 我不懂為什麼情侶要連袂來圖書館聊天和摟摟抱抱,你們怎麼不去找個房間呢?
- 我不懂為什麼一個號稱要進軍世界一流大學的圖書館地上卻沒有鋪地毯?腳步聲真的很吵。去過國外大學的圖書館,目前都還沒有一間比清大爛的。
- 我不懂為什麼長那麼醜的情侶還敢在大庭廣眾之下摟摟抱抱呢?我看了好難過。
posted by Karina Sun @ 1:47:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Murmurings
雜唸
你是在不爽什麼?
蛤?
說出來會他媽的要你的命嗎?
就明明臭臉也說別人臭臉,但自己臭臉又不說原因
你以為你是本攤開的書,大家都讀得懂嗎?
煩死了,自己的生命有限還要浪費在這種無意義的事情上
Thursday, December 22, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 2:05:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Murmurings
deadmau5 - aural psynapse - live in toronto
Wednesday, December 21, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:08:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
DJ Earworm - Party on the Floor (Capital FM Summertime Ball Mashup)
Tuesday, December 20, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 9:20:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
自製優格
1. 用沸水燙過乾淨的容器、湯匙
2. 在容器泡一杯牛奶,攪拌均勻
3. 牛奶冷卻至體溫後加優酪乳(一大湯匙或更多;越多生菌數的優酪乳優格的成功率更高)
4. 攪拌均勻後蓋好容器瓶蓋
5. 放進電鍋過夜(讓溫度維持體溫)
6. 明天早上拿起來享用
Saturday, December 17, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 5:27:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Food
空虛
她說,她要強調四個第一:民生、公平、永續、民主第一。安全需居住正義,她表示她強調公共服務,以四年四百億建設長照體系,普設公共託育,充分社會住宅,八年完成十二年 國教、高中職免試入學。公平第一強調分配資原、縮小貧富差距,保障派遣工。永續第一,好的資產留給下一代,杜絕浪費,非核家園,國土復育。民主第一,這是 未來政策形成基礎,人民學界社團都能參與司法改革。
posted by Karina Sun @ 5:18:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events
The Flowers of War - Trailer
讓誰誰誰當選台灣文化圈沒希望的這種政治操作手段之屁話,真的才表現出台灣的文化產業再這樣下去一點希望都沒有。
我們光搞「認同」就可以牽扯十幾年,大家只要花錢在選舉上面就好了,每個政治人物、當官的都想要怎麼贏得選票、順從民心,進而變成完全的民粹主義。這是民主政治的真諦嗎?
沒錢就沒文化,我是這樣認為。
當一個國家的人民每天都在為下一餐想辦法,甚至偷拐搶騙也在所不惜,請問他們哪有心思和精力去想藝術、文化這種吃不飽也喝不到的東西?
只有先求肉體上的滿足才會進而追求精神上的充實;只有溫飽後才會有高成就的藝術與文化。
那請問,台灣現在有錢嗎?台灣的經濟有急起直追上南韓嗎?(即使人家十五年前GDP還是落後我們)台灣的人民普遍脫離貧窮和無知了嗎?
這些答案你、我只要生在台灣、長在台灣都很清楚。
沒有經濟,哪來文化?
我相信自由經濟,只有越開放、越多元的經濟體會給市場更多選擇,讓人民也就是消費者有更多利益。有了自由經濟,再有政府政策制約其自由與競爭和人民福祉。
但是沒有自由的經濟,一切都別談。
若台灣再繼續因為政治立場、民族與國家認同而回到五年前的鎖國狀態,台灣的經濟將會滅亡。
我們已經錯過那八年發展的黃金時段。鐵錚錚的事實。我們還要再錯過多少年?
一部賽德克巴萊讓所有台灣人民為之驕傲;但它沒有入圍金球獎最佳外語片。
中國的這部片,耗時才四年(我相信在製作與拍攝過程中,賽德克巴萊一定更辛苦、更難熬)卻能入圍。
再看一下這部片的預告片。運鏡手法、技巧、畫面張力、配樂、色彩、場景。你不得不說入圍是該有的。它是部眾心齊力的作品;賽德克巴萊是小蝦米奮鬥出頭天的歷程。
中國的民族心與過去幾十年的辛酸歷史讓他們團結。
台灣,移民社會,自由民主的國度每個人擁有不同的聲音。我們缺少共同的記憶。連拍部史詩國片也會遭受各界的評論指教。
我們台灣少了某樣元素讓我們對自己能夠抬頭挺胸、昂首闊步(地踏在世界舞台上)。
是什麼?
到底是什麼窒礙台灣文化界、藝術界的發展?
不是誰誰誰,而是人心。
容易被操作的心、容易陷入認同混亂的心、容易因政治議題而激動憤慨的心、容易一窩蜂的心、容易對主流文化傾慕的心、容易對非主流文化帶有偏見的心;缺乏自我判斷、獨立思考與價值的心......
posted by Karina Sun @ 3:07:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Reflection, Videos
Duran Duran - Girl Panic!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 9:57:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
The Naked And Famous - 11 - Girls Like You (MELT! 2011)
Monday, December 05, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 10:55:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
High School Senior "Comes Out" in Assembly
posted by Karina Sun @ 10:18:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Videos
Placebo - Song To Say Goodbye (Live La Carpa Neumatica, Mexico City 2009)
posted by Karina Sun @ 8:10:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Placebo - Because I want you (Live at Angkor Wat)
posted by Karina Sun @ 8:05:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
The Naked And Famous - The Sun (C4 Live Sessions at York St. Studios)
Saturday, November 26, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 8:05:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Adele - Someone Like You (eSQUIRE vs OFFBeat Remix)
posted by Karina Sun @ 6:57:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
So I did it
and I failed
but I miss ___
I'm troubled and confused
I fit in mid
I feel like a freak
I'm a fucked up old Donnie Darko living in peril
I'll probably never find it
I'll die alone, and young
I like ___ but I'm so confused
__ is nice but I can't figure out
I'm fucking perplexed
I suffer
I hunger
I wonder
I ponder
I'm so fucked up :/
Wednesday, November 23, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 2:30:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Murmurings, Music
Incubus
還真多虧了GRE的服,我才知道 incubus 除了是樂團名稱之外的意義。禮拜六考完試,心情只能說很失望、很失望來形容。有種我把自己的未來毁在自己的手裡的破滅感:讓我想到不久才看的 One Day 裡的男主角那種不成才、又懊悔、又失去真愛的悲涼境界。
這種破滅和失落讓我想到我悲慘的高一歲月。在台灣的教育體制下,我對數學和理科的領悟力和邏輯讓我永遠都無法欣賞這種「研究大自然法則」的科學和知識。噩夢重演的陰霾蒙上心頭,我腦海裡只想著「我搞砸了」。心情低落到覺得自己像白痴,空有一張嘴和理想,卻沒什麼能力和其他人競爭。
但又面臨期中考和寫備審資料的壓力,我整顆心忐忑不安。在心靈脆弱徬徨之時,我又無法不想到自己存在的意義、人生存在的意義,以及自己的情感問題。明明時間沒有很多還是愛想些狗屁倒灶、沒有解答、自己不敢作的事。好想掐死自己。我會不禁納悶地問天:祢為什麼要這樣對我?
沒有勇氣就算了,卻喜歡表現地自己很堅強。看起來落落大方,但是內心卻很迂迴,對週遭事物特別敏銳。有時想要說什麼、做什麼,卻被自己的另一邊心靈給勸退。除了這些囉哩八唆的內心小劇場外,還有外界的壓力。明明自己給自己的煩惱就很多,又因為自己特別敏感的心靈,所以還格外注意別人的目光;更別說是我愛的、愛我的家人了。
如果我連身上這血肉也割去,沒有愛的我,是落魄在世界上的浮萍。目前的我沒有勇氣也無法擔當任何失去,畢竟我除了家人給我的愛之外,我是可悲地赤貧。
屈指可數,真正我敢放開心胸的朋友們。明知是心態問題,但是我無法踏出這艱難地第一步。跟室友們一聊,越知道外面的世界是有更多選項;但我寧可可悲地想著自己是個不值得,或者尚不值得被愛、去愛的人。又或許,我生來就是缺乏對人類的有著主動的強烈情感吧。但卻又總是抱著可有可無的無所謂態度,夾雜著幾絲羨慕又懊悔的矛盾,反反覆覆、愛理不理、尷尬害羞的漂浮著。但有時候,在那個當下,我真的不知道要做什麼,只能擺出一切都無所謂的樣子。但是,天知道,有時候我真的是在意到受不了!
反正,這些心理毛病和面對考試結果的壓力,讓我做了惡夢。夢好真實,好真實,好真實,好真實。我幾度半夢半醒,就連在夢裡也在問我自己:這是夢吧?
夢裡的我孑然一身。愛我的人因為意外全部走了,只有我是倖存者。我在夢裡好孤獨,好孤獨,好孤獨,好孤獨。我不敢相信這世界不再有人愛我、不再有人了解我,不再有人在乎我!我大吼大叫,即使肉體受了傷卻沒有內心來的疼。我隱約覺得我夢到泣不成聲,默默落淚,因為這並不是第一次讓我夢見這種可悲、絕望的夢。
途中我有醒來,但又睡去,夢又持續著。
沒有人愛的我,沒有希望,卻反而陷在末世的病毒風暴。很老套的,病毒感染讓人吃人,但被感染者卻以常人無異。我不知為何來到有著無數閣樓的圓柱高塔,與一批健康的倖存者關在一起。
我們無法逃,因為一出去就感染;而被感染者卻無時無刻想要進攻,又有當初離開高塔的人想要回來,但是我們無法讓他們進來,因為無從得知他們是否被感染。
這種情況下,大家趕著出去而又群龍無首。我不知為何,可能出於無奈又無所謂(反正我在這世界上也只剩我一個人),竟又默默當起組織防禦、安撫群眾的人...... 在高塔上跑上跑下,分配武裝人力、警告所有倖存者不准出塔、下令格斃所有試圖闖進塔裡的人類,還要面對塔裡群眾、塔外人類的質疑。
好多人試著闖進塔裡,從到處都有的閣樓,或是直接攻擊門窗。閣樓空間陰暗又狹小,偏偏很多個出入口,我只能和防守的人擠在一起,一起想辦法壓住木板,不讓他們進來。
當我告訴出塔又試圖進塔的倖存者,說為了保護塔內所有人的健康,而我們又在無從分辨有無受感染的情形下,我們必須讓出塔的人不能再進來。那些關在外面的人,他們的臉色上的怨恨、不甘心歷歷在目,而我內心的焦慮和面臨抉擇的煎熬卻如此真切、清晰......
不同於以往我老是那種飛來飛去、不死之身的大英雄,在這些夢裡,我有好沉重、好沉重的責任和傷痛。一切非常真實,讓我早上醒來,頭腦昏沉彷彿一夜未眠。但又慶幸這一切真的只是夢,但卻有點懷念夢裡一切都沒有、一切都不在乎的悲傷地灑脫境界。
在臉書分享這可悲的夢境後,朋友寄訊息問我一切安好。他是我國一、二就認識的筆友,後來持續聯絡到大學。去年暑假,我申請上獎學金去美國讀個小書,特地經過聖地牙哥,停留五天見他一面。他、他女友、他朋友,和我,我們四個人在美呆的海邊玩趴板、去吃令人流連忘返地墨西哥菜、去UCSD晃晃、去他女友工作的smoothie店喝飲料、去晚上的La Jolla看海聽海聊天。
那是很特別、很難忘的經驗。可以和從小就認識的筆友(傳統復古的寫信,不是高科技的電子郵件)見面,並保持聯絡。時間在我們身上起了作用,但當初認識的友誼和熟悉卻不變,即使在去年之前我們完全沒有見過面。去年夏天我過的很快樂。
心情低落的我,看了他的訊息後淚差點掉了下來。這讓我想到不久前拿到凱齡給我的小書卡,上頭的文字雖是短短幾行卻是刻入我心頭;看到後來我的淚也滑了下來。(凱齡,若妳正巧看著,請妳務必知道我真的很感激妳的鼓勵;而我就聽從妳的介意,來寫篇久久沒更新的網誌)
其實很少人知道我是很感性的吧。這也是我自怨自艾,覺得沒有人了解我的原因,因為我外表並不是感性的人。但是人怎麼能用「看似」而概括定之?
看到傑森寫給我的訊息,我好開心也好窩心。我知道其實我是孤獨的,但我也並不孤獨。其實人生中有些遺憾,但並不算是人生就此沒了意義。
如果我真的無法去愛或是被愛,但我還有朋友,不管是遠是近,都惦念著我。看著文字所帶來的感動,我非常感激我是如此幸運又不幸。
說到這,又很討厭自己在這無病呻吟呀,什麼愛的、被愛的。真愛?有嗎?都是 One Day 惹的禍,讓我敏感纖細感性的心靈此刻又無病呻吟起來。
真愛?有嗎?
也不用真愛,但我遇的到我愛的人和愛我的人嗎?我有能力去面對愛嗎?
唉,又在這無病呻吟強說愁。
明天早上八點四十五的飛機。
或許旅行又是個暫且逃避現實的機會吧。
Tuesday, November 08, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 5:13:00 PM 2 個腳印
categories: College Life, Reflection
脹氣
不曉得是中午吃麥當當太油膩還是晚餐自助餐的過貓不新鮮,導致今天晚上在圖書館試圖努力讀書卻淪於脹氣不舒服完全沒效率的下場。最後花了一個小時寫完應該要半小時寫完的居阿姨申論作文。但是至少有完整地寫完,自認組織和用字遣詞還可以。反正至少有練習到批判思考和邏輯分析能力吧。明天下午沒課,須好好把握,畢竟禮拜六早上就要赴沙場了。
Monday, October 31, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:22:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Murmurings
Cogel - Aquarium [Official Music Video]
Sunday, October 23, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 3:45:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
8 / 13 / 17
The above figures indicate 3 events I'm going to encounter in November. 3 transitions, to better or worse I do not know, but they all signify a start or fall of something. Something that lead to a muddling future.
I just keep wondering what is the purpose of relationships. Being bound to an individual that you feel mentally (and physically) attached to. Love? Love can be defined in several ways. My life lacks relationships, but not love, I guess. Friendship is built on love. Parenthood is build on love. I love the nature. I love animals. So what is love exactly? It depends on what do you think of love. Linked to someone for a very long time, sharing, growing, and learning with each other. Love? Love.
But I just have no stronger feeling than admiration and appreciation. Maybe I do, but I feel no necessity. I can't understand. I am so confused and this keeps bothering me. Am I a freak? I am sentimental. I am sensitive, but above all, I love everything as equal. Maybe that is the reason why I cannot feel a love between human beings.
Yet sometimes I keep questioning myself whether it is due to my timidness. I am afraid to try in relationships. I am avoiding something I do want to face. I know exactly what I am avoiding, but I mask myself and refuse to talk about it openly.
Sorrow is Knowledge: they who know the mostMust mourn the deepest o'er the fatal truth,The Tree of Knowledge is not that of Life.
----- LORD BYRON, Manfred
Sometimes it is just not that easy to face a truth; maybe that is the purpose of God's existence.
So I project myself and find comfort in my favorite movie so far: Into the Wild.
That is the quotation I can think of when I am questioning. Maybe be I am that some people who feel like they don't deserve love. Yet my parents love me and I love them, too. Is it because I am just so accustomed to live an individual life? So used to live on my own.
And then I read this and saw it reflected it again on the them of Into the Wild:
There is pleasure in the pathless woods,There is a rapture on the lonely shore,There is society, where none intrudes,By the deep sea, and music in its roar:I love not man the less, but Nature more,From these our interviews, in which I stealFrom all I may be, or have been before,To mingle with the Universe, and feelWhat I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal.
--- LORD BYRON, Childe Harold
(Taken on October 7 2011 || Copyrights @ Karina Sun) |
Saturday, October 22, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 2:58:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Reflection
Death Songs-Ophelia
Thursday, October 20, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 12:28:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Marilyn Manson - Resident Evil movie soundtrack 2008
Sunday, October 09, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 8:25:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Eminem & Gwen Stefani - Cleanin' Out My Closet (Don't Speak) [Urban Noiz...
posted by Karina Sun @ 8:07:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
The Duke Spirit - Don't Wait (Later with Jools Holland)
Wednesday, September 28, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 1:27:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Placebo - Song To Say Goodbye at the Brixton Academy.
posted by Karina Sun @ 1:25:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
east hastings-godspeed you black emperor
Saturday, September 24, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 4:20:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Adele - Rolling In The Deep (Live) Itunes Festival HD
posted by Karina Sun @ 2:30:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Godspeed You! Black Emperor - Antennas To Heaven
Tuesday, September 20, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:05:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
30 Seconds To Mars - Closer To The Edge
Saturday, September 17, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:42:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Emmanuel Kelly The X Factor 2011 Auditions Emmanuel Kelly FULL
posted by Karina Sun @ 11:23:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Emmanuel Kelly The X Factor 2011 Auditions Emmanuel Kelly FULL
posted by Karina Sun @ 11:16:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
CARLOS JEAN - Lead the way
Wednesday, September 14, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 7:51:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
The Subways - Shake! Shake! - Official Video
Monday, September 12, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:35:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
AWKWARDLY SEXY
Sunday, September 11, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 6:15:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Funny and Interesting Stuff
PLEASE DON'T F*CKING TALK TO ME
posted by Karina Sun @ 5:42:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Funny and Interesting Stuff
LEARN HOW TO PLAY WITH YOURSELF
posted by Karina Sun @ 5:32:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Funny and Interesting Stuff
Ed Sheeran - The A Team Lyrics (On Screen)
Tuesday, September 06, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 12:46:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Calvin Harris - Bounce feat. Kelis
Friday, September 02, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 9:32:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
The Duke Spirit - Surrender
Thursday, August 11, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:59:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Kaskade (feat. Mindy Gledhill) - Eyes
Monday, August 08, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 8:00:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Placebo - Song to say goodbye
Saturday, August 06, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 7:47:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Eskmo - Cloudlight (Official Video) HD
Friday, August 05, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 12:08:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Jessie J - Price Tag (Live on Jools Holland 2010)
Thursday, August 04, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:52:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Bruno Mars - Just the way you are (Jayesslee cover)
posted by Karina Sun @ 11:25:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Deftones- You've Seen The Butcher
Wednesday, August 03, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 9:53:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Deftones - You've Seen The Butcher (Mustard Pimp Remix)
posted by Karina Sun @ 9:52:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
想一下
「自一七七六年美國人一再誓言爲自由而戰,展現捍衛自由的決心,但爲誰的自由而戰?捍衛誰的自由?卻不易得
現代社會中,個人的慾望往往以多元方式呈現,唯
-- 林向愷(台灣大學經濟系教授)(2005)
From 「地下慾望知多少?」-「大麻、草莓園、色情王國(Sex, Drugs, and Cheap Labor in the American Black Market)」(by Eric Schlosser)之推薦序
posted by Karina Sun @ 8:40:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events
Maddi Jane - Just The Way You Are (Bruno Mars)
posted by Karina Sun @ 4:48:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
David Guetta - I Gotta Feeling ( Album One Love )
posted by Karina Sun @ 1:02:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
NAGGING
Everything is so fucked up. The worst is that I had a vision months ago. We had the chance to twist it, but in the end it turned out to be exactly a poo of shit. Who should be responsible for this? Bloody hell, I know exactly who should take all this up, but does retarded ever listen and understand? I don't think so. I am furious. Period. F-U-R-I-O-U-S.
I know we should all act as a team, with our team spirit. I have felt that I have become the center of the spirit, if it does have exist in our case. At first I felt I was flattered, since I believed everyone had their own potential, and it shouldn't necessarily be me who has the capacity to the up-lifting of the spirit. Yet as time passed, I have found it as a curse - put down by those who had no capacity to execute, no will to take responsibility, no courage to make decisions, no spontaneity to respond, and most importantly, no diligence to learn and ask.
I am tired. I know as a teammate, we should help each other out, but I am so wearied. I have kept asking myself: "Why should I take all of these?" Is it because there has no "connection" between us? I am so tired of leading, deciding, directing conversations, hosting meetings, and solving all the puzzles that are left by one particular irresponsible teammate. What exhausts me most is the situation that only few of the teammates have noticed what have happened and what have gone wrong, while still others are seemingly chillaxing, chit-chatting, fooling around, or spacing out in their own world.
I am doing what I DO NOT suppose to do; I ain't the leader, it ain't my job and responsibility. I am cleaning others' mess, and seriously, I don't have to - Neither am I the janitor. Or do I look like that I adore picking up other's trash?
The reason that has kept me and encouraged me to move on and to do what has surpassed my job and responsibility is that I AM TOO FREAKING KIND. I am so nice, and I am thinking to be evil, since being nice to the enemy equals to being cruel to yourself. And to put it straightforward, sometimes I do love myself more.
We only live our life for once. Live for yourself and live it only.
The reason that has kept me and encouraged me to move on and to do what has surpassed my job and responsibility is that I AM TOO FUCKING KIND. I am so nice, and I am thinking to be evil, since being nice to the enemy equals to being cruel to yourself. Currently, under this situation, I love myself more than loving my fucking enemies, although the "enemies" here are more likely to be "teammates." To be more precise, it should be ONE PARTICULAR IRRESPONSIBLE NUMB N BITCHY DUMBASS TEAMMATE. Alright, I have made a correction there - my particular teammate IS NOT a dumbass. She is not a bitch. Oh, wait. Did I just say "she" ? Let me correct it as the following:
THAT PARTICULAR IRRESPONSIBLE NUMB N BITCHYDUMBASSTEAMMATEIS A SHEIS MY TEAMMATE SO I SHOULD HELPHEROUT. SO I WILL STOP SWEARING WITH THE F WORD, THAT IS, FUCK OR FUCKING, AS WELL AS THE B WORD - BITCH OR BITCHY, ALONG WITH SO MANY OTHER BAD WORDS SUCH AS SLUT, CUNT, BASTARD, SHIT, POO, ASS, DUMMY, PUSSY, AND ETC. I PROMISE I WILL TRY TO AVOID THE BAD WORDS, INCLUDING FUCK, FUCKING, BITCH, BITCHY, SLUT, CUNT, BASTARD, SHIT, POO, ASS, DUMMY, AND PUSSY, WHILE I THINK OFHER, WRITE ABOUTHER, TALK ABOUTHER, AND EVEN BLOG ABOUTHER.
posted by Karina Sun @ 1:41:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: College Life, Hatred
Mustafa Akyol: Faith versus tradition in Islam | Video on TED.com
Tuesday, August 02, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 12:25:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events, Videos
Robert Gupta and Joshua Roman duet on "Passacaglia" | Video on TED.com
Monday, August 01, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:44:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Toddla T - Watch Me Dance ft. Roots Manuva
posted by Karina Sun @ 10:00:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Sunday, July 31, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 4:28:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Murmurings, Photography
Jailcard - Jane Lui (Official Music Video)
posted by Karina Sun @ 3:24:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Cartoon Medley w/ Trivia! (feat. Paul Dateh)
posted by Karina Sun @ 3:17:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
it gets better, again
Love should be universal, but see how love has made people suffered and oppressed. Bullies are physical, but there is a more harmful bully existing in our society - the pretentious liberality. Taiwan indeed is the most liberal nation in East Asia, but what chokes our progress to the universal human rights is the values, the moral regulations, and the traditions passed down from Confucianism. Forsake the old values that hinder our rights and freedom. Any morale, any value, or any conventional regulation cannot stop people from what they are going to do. I heard it somewhere from a mother of a gay:
"Being LGBT is not 'choosing a lifestyle.' It is not about lifestyle per se; people were just born this way."
Friday, July 29, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 1:53:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events, Videos
It gets better
How can people deprive other people's rights from enjoying or simply possessing their own happiness? It's just so sad to see how inequality, misunderstanding, discrimination, and ignorance has pushed the people to the edge of society and the community. If the society continues to be unfriendly, or even hostile to any uniqueness and difference among the community, there will be no true fairness and decent courage, but more falsehood and pretentious liberality.Being liberal is not merely referring to politics or sexuality. Being liberal is to truly open up your heart, accepting the multi-dimensions of nature, of world, of life, and of humanity.
Thursday, July 28, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 11:53:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events, Videos
Burberry Acoustic - 'In The Arms Of Another Day' by The Daydream Club
posted by Karina Sun @ 10:45:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Angus and Julia Stone - I'm Not Yours [Official Music Video]
posted by Karina Sun @ 11:10:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Rory Stewart: Time to end the war in Afghanistan | Video on TED.com
Rory Stewart: Time to end the war in Afghanistan | Video on TED.com
The key to successfully engaging in any sort of policy, action, development, or assistance in a foreign nation is to get the involvement. The involvement should come from the local community, from the consensus built together by both the local intellectual / villager / authority, and the foreign counterparts. Rory Stewart manifests the idea that does not merely essential in dealing with Afghan issues. This mindset is what every individual should acknowledge while they are engaged in international activities, such as doing voluntary services abroad, or even conducting their services in the domestic remote areas.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011 | posted by Karina Sun @ 10:56:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events, Videos
Jennifer Lopez - On The Floor ft. Pitbull
posted by Karina Sun @ 10:21:00 PM 0 個腳印
categories: Music
Foreign Policy - The War in Hipstamatic
The War in Hipstamatic
A rare and beautiful look at Afghanistan, through an iPhone.
IMAGES BY BALAZS GARDI | JULY 25, 2011
posted by Karina Sun @ 9:55:00 AM 0 個腳印
categories: Current Events, Photography